something to think about...

I took this from my friend Amber's facebook page. so, thanks Amber Petersen! :)

If we could shrink the earth's population to a village of precisely 100 people, with all the existing human ratios remaining the same, it would look something like the following: There would be: 57 Asians 21 Europeans 14 from the Western Hemisphere, both north and south 8 Africans 52 would be female 48 would be male 70 would be non-white 30 would be white 70 would be non-Christian 30 would be Christian 89 would be heterosexual 11 would be homosexual 6 people would possess 59% of the entire world's wealth and all 6 would be from the United States. 80 would live in substandard housing 70 would be unable to read 50 would suffer from malnutrition 1 would be near death; 1 would be near birth 1 (yes, only 1) would have a college education 1 would own a computer The following is also something to ponder... • If you woke up this morning with more health than illness...you are more blessed than the million who will not survive this week. • If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation, you are ahead of 500 million people in the world. • If you can attend a church meeting without fear of harassment, arrest, torture, or death...you are more blessed than three billion people in the world. • If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead and a place to sleep...you are richer than 70% of this world. • If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish someplace ... you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy. • If your parents are still alive and still married ... you are very rare, even in the United States and Canada. •If you can read this message, you are more blessed than over two billion people in the world that cannot read at all.

getting out of this rut!

at least mentally getting out of this rut, since I can't physically. I got some great advice from sister, Susan. This is just my practice run right now. I'm supposed to take this time to figure out who I am as a person, what I want for my future, and how do I accomplish that. also, I have to remind myself and thank God for all that I DO have. we have our own apartment now! neither of us are living with our parents anymore!

next I have to start planning goals for myself. short term goals that slowly build towards my long term goal. so, I decided that for my first short term goal: I will have $500 in my savings account by December 31, 2011! it will be extremely difficult for me to accomplish, except that it IS very attainable if I work for it and make my budget more strict with no more irresponsible spending! so that is a goal that I have set for myself so far!

so, here goes nothin! :)

hmm... again?

so many people around me are getting pregnant or married. again... i guess it's my age. being in your mid twenties is the time you're "supposed" to get married and have a family, at least that's according to common society. my only question is why? not that i am not thrilled for my friends and relatives, but i guess i am part of a different crowd. i do want to be married someday, sometimes i wish it'd be sooner than later, but then i remember i'm not ready for it. i am mentally ready for marriage, but not financially. even though i don't want a big wedding, i don't want to be a starving newlywed couple. and as far as kids goes, no thank you. beau and i aren't "kid friendly" and we are both on the same page as far as children. so i guess i should be thanking all my friends for repopulating the earth since i won't be doing that. but then i get the pressure from people asking me when am i going to get married and have kids. it just gets a little overwhelming. well my answer is yes, someday i'll get married (hopefully to beau bear). and no, we are not planning on having children. we are leaving that duty to our siblings. but we are more than happy to be the cool aunt and uncle :)

so congrats to all my friends and family who are having children and getting married! i am happy for you, honestly!

bad day turned to good

today started out bad, but ended on a good note. now i'm looking forward to a night in with my sweetie :) it's amazing what prayer can do to a depressed mind. God provides a new perspective on situations and problems. it's best to focus on the positives in my life and all that God provides for me :) thank you Lord for never turning your back on me, even when i forget that i can turn to you whenever i need it. You are always there for me, God and i love You! thank you to Jesus for providing the line from me to God :) Christ is my homie!

now i'm going to kick back with a grilled cheese sandwich and a glass of wine :)

i dunno...

my mind won't shut up. for some reason i feel restless. i'm bored, frustrated... ugh i dunno. i feel like i can't even comprehend a single thought. i can't focus or concentrate on anything. physically i'm exhausted. i want to sleep all day. for some reason i can't explain anything... i'm going to go to sleep. please God, grant me a restful sleep; let me wake up with clarity and a sense of purpose; amen.