I hate my job

Anyone who knows me would say that statement is pretty obvious. I work my ass off every day for people that hardly notice or care. I could slack off all day and I would get treated the same way: like complete utter useless shit. So you may be thinking why do I care so much? Why do I work so hard?

Because that is who I am. When I work at a job, I will work hard for you to prove to you that I am a well-deserved employee who should be valued and treated with respect. But my current managers do not care about any of this. I am forced to take mental abuse everyday for the sake of a paycheck that is not worth all the stress. Why am I still there you may be asking?

I am still there working over eight hours a day not by choice. In this current economic state, I cannot afford to be choosey about a job. I put up with the continuous bullshit because it does earn me a paycheck to pay my rent and bills. I actively search for new jobs on a daily basis, but yet I am unsuccessful at finding one. I am either way too over qualified or under qualified for most jobs. I also have to make sure that whatever job I take compensates me at the same rate or higher of what I make now, otherwise I'll be out on the street.

So this is my dilemma. I work in hell, every day. I pray for strength to get through the day every morning and at the end of the day all I want to do is cry. The stress is astounding and I am continuously told that I shouldn't care so much. That is easier said than done. I care because that is who I am. I have tried to not give a shit and be like all the lazy workers who make a dollar more an hour than me, but I don't respect those people. I am not lazy, therefore, I work hard. Working hard is defined by me caring about the job that doesn't care about me. It is truly a catch 22 situation.

The bottom line is that I am stuck at my job until a better one comes along. All I can do is apply for various jobs everyday and pray that I am qualified for one. This sucks.