another day sick at home

well i've been sick for over two weeks now. i'm pretty sure that i have a sinus infection or something big, but i have no insurance so i can't get proper medicine. store brand cold and flu medicine are no longer helping. i'm stuck at home feeling miserable drinking tea and water, praying for God to rid me of this. that's the one thing about being an adult. you have to take care of yourself when you're sick. and it sucks. days like these i really miss my mom, she was always good at taking care of us kids when we were sick. beau does as much as he can, but he's sick too. two sick people trying to take care of each other doesn't really work out. my dad is here, but i don't want him taking care of me for fear that he will get sick. :( so i'm on my own. i wish someone would bring me some soup and or medicine.... that'd be awesome. i really have to buckle down and take care of myself. that's the one thing about being in a relationship for me. i tend to get lazy. don't take care of myself as much as i do when i'm single, because i no longer have to impress anybody. weird mentality.... but it's true. i am lazy, there is no denying it. but my mom bought me a wii for my graduation present. and i'm going to splurge a little and buy the wii fit plus for myself. i did it when don and i were dating and i was actually losing weight slowly. plus, though we don't have much money, i have to buy food that is more healthy for both me and my dad, for both our sakes. drink more water and tea. try and get my balanced diet back on track. stop eating taco bell! i went two years without eating fast food, then bam! you get drunk once (taco bell is the best food when you're drunk) and i'm back in an old habit. plus i have to get in a better sleep pattern. make it more even. there's a lot of things i have to do.... i just have to stop being soo damn lazy! and today is valentine's day. i'm not that big into valentine's day. it's always been my belief that you should lavish your loved one in romance every day of the year. flowers and candy and teddy bears and romantic dinners out should not be reserved for only one day of the year. but for people who celebrate it, happy valentine's day to you! beau and i had a really good day yesterday, despite us both feeling like death around 4:30pm. the morning and afternoon was good, damn viruses have to ruin the rest of the day. i was supposed to go to a movie night at christi and lauren's place last night. but i missed yet again. i've been canceling a lot on them and i haven't been to church in three weeks. (sorry ladies, i know i'm lame) i just feel miserable and i'd rather not spread whatever it is i have. i just want to get better!!! boo!!!! i want my social life back!