another day in the land of snow

well today was an okay day. woke up and shoveled which sucked, but then beau woke up and finished for me :) we have a snow blower, but we don't know how to use it... haha.... dad came down stairs and started making breakfast, of which i joined in and made eggs and toast for myself and beau bear. work was really boring and slow, but my shift was only 4 hours long so it was tolerable. came home and dad and i made dinner, chicken and cheese egg rolls with carrot rice. we threw it together with what we had in the cupboards. it was pretty good actually :) so the money situation sucks. family has been more than helpful in providing groceries, but frankly we can always get food. it's the bills that we are worried about. the energy bill, the mortgage, the phone, dad's medical bills, and bills of my own. not to mention there are things we need. dad needs a new chair. with his back he needs something that will support him comfortably. plus we both need at least a new mattress. his bed is soo sunken in the middle he sleeps in his chair. and i wake up every morning with my back, neck, and or shoulders hurting. plus we both wake up tired, that just sucks! money is always a touchy subject with people too, and i understand why. worries arise with repayment and sadly, my dad and i are in no position to do that. lame! my church has helped me out already, and i have to meet with tom again so he can try and lower my interest rates on some of my credit cards. i do appreciate that, don't get me wrong. God has definitely provided a financial relief in a small way. sadly though it's just not enough and now i feel like i'm being selfish and not appreciating what God has provided thus far. but i do! i really do! realistically though money is a major issue at my house. i'm applying for jobs again. i need a full time job or another part time job. sears is good, but i only get 25 hours a week now and at minimum wage. i sunk low and applied at starbucks for a store manager job in Evanston, and i'm going to apply at my old store as a barista or a shift supervisor. whatever i can get really. i just need a job that can bring more income into the house. sears is literally the only source of income for our house right now, and it just isn't cutting it :( grr..... money matters get me soo frustrated!!! i have to remember to trust God's plan for me and have faith in Him!